Falling WAAAAAY off track

The last few days have been a bit of a tussle for me and I have fallen way off the eating plan I have. I am not looking forward to Tuesday and the measure up as I know there is very little chance of seeing lower numbers and am preparing myself for it to even go up.

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I understand that about now is the time that the universe - your God, your will is tested with your new choices with food and your eating plan.. but I have fallen off the proverbial wagon... and its hard to scrabble back on board.

Raw Food Journey is the blog I have committed to in posting every day,everything that passes my lips. Its been a great tool as I feel I have a responsibility to remain truthful and fess up with everything - even when its been embarrassing and really naughty. Its been a great strength for me to draw on as I don't want the pain of having to write bad things down.

I had hoped that this site would also be a place where the others within the body shaping group , could share their thoughts, recipes, strategies, celebrate their journey,and draw on the feedback and support of others during this time.

I certainly know that when I reach my goal and people will want to know how I did it, what was going through my head and if I slipped up at all - that I can point them to my site and say - its all there - warts and all. Nothing is as disheartening to see someone reshape their body and then hear that it had been really easy for them, that 'all they did was......" and then feel that there is no way that you could ever do what they had done.. so you just give up.. you never try it and you remain feeling like crap. I know - I have been on a diet for over 20 years - varying successes - but never really been successful. This has been the only time that it has really worked. I am desperate for it to work not only for myself - but for other people and I want to share my journey, my failures and my successes - warts and all. I want people to say - hell - if SHE can do it and boy - look at her - anyone can do it.

JoJo has been great in sharing her story - her ups and downs - and she will serve as a great ambassador to both her friends and those on the net looking for answers. Anyway - I do hope that more of the gang feel confident enough to start to share their journey.

till Tues I guess...

Introducing Annie

Hi – I’ m Annie - I am a Mum, a Writer and a Thaumaturg ( what mother isn't?) I am passionate about community and social inclusion using my skills as a communicator ( you are never an "ex" teacher) to act as a catalyst between people, ideas and quality information.

To give you a bit of back ground about me - I have taken a sabbatical from paid employment to explore creative pursuits including writing. I draw on my years as a teacher and time in the corporate field to bring life experience to my eclectic style of writing. I have written speculative science fiction, feminist literature, romance, adventure and magazine articles exploring themes in mothering, feminism, spirituality and sharing my journey as a woman and mother – If you’d like to see my work – go here for the links.

I am currently involved with a number of collaborative writing projects in both fiction and non fiction, loving the challenge of being a section editor for TypeA Mom, a weekly Columnist for Write Anything as well as conducting workshops with community and speaking at key events.

In saying all of this – you can gather I like to be busy and kept challenged.. and I have allowed my fitness and health to slide over the years of being a mum and just simply being busy. I have always had challenges with my weight and have been on some sort of diet or fad for 25 years. I stacked weight on after my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumour and underwent radiotherapy and just got worse and worse ever since.

The most ‘successful’ diet I went on was the black coffee and 2 apple diet – as much black coffee and water you can consume in a day and two apples. I lost nearly 15kgs on that – for my wedding.. and that I think was the start of the decline of my metabolism and insulin allergy.

I am nearing the big 40 birthday – in 6 months – and have made the decision I am not going to be fat and 40.

So – am willing now to do anything – to try anything to shed weight and get back on track. I have made my own accountability blog here where I record everything I eat and what I do. I'd love you to drop by sometime - give me some encouragement!